my contract is almost up at my gym. giving much consideration to joining the crossfit gym here, but it’s 4x the cost of the gym i currently go to and, if i’m being honest, i’m scared. there is a free saturday workout as well as the on-ramp program, but i feel rather intimidated - which admittedly is not a good reason to avoid something, and if anything is even more reason to do it.

i would love it if you would send me a message about your first few times going and any words of encouragement or advice! 

9:44 pm  •  11 December 2012  •  3 notes

Recovery is not something you can get cocky about. You may have been fine for years, but unhealthy thoughts & behaviors are insidious - they will creep in the back door when you aren’t looking. Do not let this discourage you. Use it as motivation to keep making your health a priority every single day. This is worth fighting for. 

6:37 pm  •  3 December 2012  •  8 notes

I woke up simultaneously sad and motivated.

8:15 am  •  30 November 2012  •  9 notes

true freedom!

WORD. I was thinking about how a few years ago, I would have had to measure out XXX calories worth, make some sort of personal promise to myself that I would make up for it in some way, and then still deal with feelings of guilt and self-hatred afterwards. 

Now i can just eat as much or as little as I want just because I want to, because it tastes good, because it is from a meal shared in love with my family. And to top it all off, absolutely NONE of my fears came true when i stopped caring about how many calories I ate each day - the world didn’t end, I didn’t get fat, everyone still loves me as much as they did before.

I’m feeling a little bit emotional about this, you guys, but srsly - this is truly one of the most liberating feelings in the world for me.  

2:39 pm  •  23 November 2012  •  5 notes

Feeling grateful that my dad has this setup in the basement so I can get my lift on while visiting for the holiday.

12:25 pm  •  23 November 2012  •  9 notes

• DEADLIFT DAY
   
• last day of work before 5 glorious days off
  
  
• my gentleman caller’s birthday
   
• ^^^ i made a cake with over half a pint of bourbon in it
  
  
• dinner party with friends

have a lovely day, friends ♥

7:32 am  •  20 November 2012  •  10 notes

I remember this night so vividly. It hurt like hell and ate at me for days. In a completely ironic twist of fate, I happen to now be dating the guy who my now-ex’s ex-girlfriend was out with that night. It took me months to put this together. Maybe I would have noticed him if I hadn’t been busy being upset about her existence for that entire night.

Undeniable proof that you shouldn’t focus on the negative because you might miss out on noticing something great … :)

7:44 am  •  19 November 2012  •  5 notes

squats.
overhead press.
dumbbell bench.
triceps pushdown.
planks.

then I ate 900 calories in ten minutes.
CONTENT WITH LIFE.

6:33 pm  •  17 November 2012  •  8 notes

about to try this out and go squat my face off. my dog says hi.

4:20 pm  •  17 November 2012  •  3 notes

when i get back to squatting my previous max (1.2x bodyweight), i am totally going to buy myself something off of the Lift Big, Eat Big site. probably nothing about having a big booty though, i am sorely afflicted with ABD*. this reminds me that i should take some butt pics so i can track my progress there. 




*asian booty disease, y’all. it’s a problem.
 

1:00 pm  •  17 November 2012  •  9 notes